I’m a typical girl living in the suburbs. I have a bubbly, cool personality that gets along with everyone. When I like a guy, I fall for him deeply. I know it’s stupid but I always do, that’s why I’m so messed up.
One of my boyfriends that I dated was a year older than me. He was super tall and fun. I liked him alot because we could have fun and talk. He asked me out a week before he went to another country for summer vacation. In the heat of the moment, I said YES. I don’t think I would have regreted it so much…I stupidly waited for him..for 2 and a half months…I missed him so much and wanted to see him.
He and I lived 30 mins away from each other and we didn’t have cars so it was hard to see each other. My birthday was in September and we went to the same church so we decided to meet up after church to blow out the candles. I (myself) bought the cake and waited (again..) I waited… and I waited… It was September but it was cold and windy. I was wearing a skirt that I normally don’t wear.
As suspected, he didn’t come…I was sad but I was also mad. I was sad because I wanted to spend my birthday with him. I was mad because he didn’t show up. I was more sad because I trusted him…I trusted him to show up for me..
The next day, I called him and asked why he didn’t come out. He said, “My dad didn’t let me go.” That’s what he said. He said he didn’t have PERMISSION. Because he was my boyfriend who I really liked, I believed him and forgave…
The next week, I heard a rumor that he was cheating on me with another girl. Of course, I didn’t believe them…I called him to confront him about the issue..
A girl picked up..
I said nothing..I hanged up and started to cry..It was the girl of the rumor..
That same day, he said he didn’t even know who that was..I felt stupid and frustrated with my self…I broke up with him and I did confront him. He said He did cheat on me and that he wasn’t sorry..Stupidly I didn’t say or scream at him..
We broke up but..my heart was never repaired. I tried to repair it by going out with other guys but that didn’t help at all. Because of him, my heart is still cold to guys and I can’t trust them..My heart won’t open..I think I’m afraid of getting hurt..I have a boyfriend now and I really like him but I’m afraid I won’t be able to open up to him….I don’t what to do..
It was because of him..that I’m so cold now..I hope someone reads this and feels the pain that I’ve went through and realize that you shouldn’t end up like me..because my heart is cold as a rock.. It was because of him…
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